I know, I know, I've been bad. I havnt written in here in forever, but thats because I'm in the middle of building a new blog. It's going to be a closed blog, so if you would like access to my blog please email me at: duckie23foxy@hotmail.com and I will be allowing only very very very few to view it. Please dont take it personally if I dont allow you to view my blog, my intentions is to keep a blog, and to only allow people to view it that I dont know personally. Thank you all for reading over the past year!
Duckie
Monday, June 18, 2007
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Not much new
So how was everyones Mothers Day? Both of mine (yes BOTH) went Fantastic! On Saturday my love, my brother and I went to see my mom for the day. We started out with my mom taking us to a potential wedding spot that I found on the net. I got her to scout it out earlier, and she claims that it's "perfect". So we headed out there, it's only about a 10 minute drive from her house, which is nice. It's also nestled beautifully in the rolling hills. The venue is an outdoor location, it has a man-made lake/pond, and an old grainery set up like a little cottage on the edge of the pond. There is a bridge, archways, open areas, paths, everything you could want for an outdoor wedding. It's certainly an amazing place, and we saw it with brown grass and bare trees everywhere!
After looking there we headed to moms hotel so she could show us the Executive Suite! It was beyond amazing! I didnt know such a room could exsist in such a small city! The whole suite was bigger than my apartment (and I have a decent sized apartment!). It had an entry, kitchen, dining room, 2 bathrooms, bedroom(with a king sized four-poster bed!), nook, livingroom, and a jacuzzi tub in the livingroom! It was to DIE for! Then she showed us some smaller suites, but equally amazing as possibilites for guests, and for us to stay in the night before the wedding. (At the Ceremony site, it's a b&b, so we would stay there after with their honeymoon package). Then we headed across the parking lot to another hotel to check out the banquet rooms.
After that we headed out for our mother's day lunch which was...okay. Actually the food was amazing until I found a fly sweetly nestled between my hunk of onion and peas. mmm mmm! Afterwards we pretty much just hung out for the day, went shopping etc.
Now, for Sunday we went to go see my loves mom with my brother again in tow. It's always alot of fun staying there, and this day was no exception. The weather was beautiful so we all stayed outside for a good portion of the day. The guys (his dad, brother, him and my brother) all played on their quads and then pulled out a 22, and pellet guns to shoot targets in the yard. I would like to now take this time to announce that I Duckie was the best shot out of them all! Yup, bunch of boys beaten over and over by a girl. heh heh.
The rest of the day after that we did alot of lounging, watching TV, and enjoying the sun and good company. We ended the day with an A m a z i n g meal. I love going out to their house, it's always fun.
After all of that, one of my good friends took a flight out here to see her mom and I get to see her (twice! mwah ha!). Last night we pulled a good portion of an all nighter because she had to take the plane at 6am. It was awesome to hang out with a girl. haha.
Well thats all I've got for now, I'm afraid I'm going to just keep rambling on and on.. till next time! :)
After looking there we headed to moms hotel so she could show us the Executive Suite! It was beyond amazing! I didnt know such a room could exsist in such a small city! The whole suite was bigger than my apartment (and I have a decent sized apartment!). It had an entry, kitchen, dining room, 2 bathrooms, bedroom(with a king sized four-poster bed!), nook, livingroom, and a jacuzzi tub in the livingroom! It was to DIE for! Then she showed us some smaller suites, but equally amazing as possibilites for guests, and for us to stay in the night before the wedding. (At the Ceremony site, it's a b&b, so we would stay there after with their honeymoon package). Then we headed across the parking lot to another hotel to check out the banquet rooms.
After that we headed out for our mother's day lunch which was...okay. Actually the food was amazing until I found a fly sweetly nestled between my hunk of onion and peas. mmm mmm! Afterwards we pretty much just hung out for the day, went shopping etc.
Now, for Sunday we went to go see my loves mom with my brother again in tow. It's always alot of fun staying there, and this day was no exception. The weather was beautiful so we all stayed outside for a good portion of the day. The guys (his dad, brother, him and my brother) all played on their quads and then pulled out a 22, and pellet guns to shoot targets in the yard. I would like to now take this time to announce that I Duckie was the best shot out of them all! Yup, bunch of boys beaten over and over by a girl. heh heh.
The rest of the day after that we did alot of lounging, watching TV, and enjoying the sun and good company. We ended the day with an A m a z i n g meal. I love going out to their house, it's always fun.
After all of that, one of my good friends took a flight out here to see her mom and I get to see her (twice! mwah ha!). Last night we pulled a good portion of an all nighter because she had to take the plane at 6am. It was awesome to hang out with a girl. haha.
Well thats all I've got for now, I'm afraid I'm going to just keep rambling on and on.. till next time! :)
Gittin' the ball rolling
Well the ball has slowly started rolling with Wedding Planning. I mean S L O W L Y. But thats okay, we dont even have a date yet. It's hard to start anything without a date. Fourtunately we may have already found a wedding site(outdoors!), banquet room, and hotel rooms for our guests, and all at hopefully a decent price. My mom works at a 5-star hotel chain, and she can get us a great deal on the suites, as well as the banquet rooms in another hotel across the parking lot. Now.. having that said, we still have more locations to look at over the summer. It also looks like the late-summer-to-fall date we where hoping for might not happen because of a family reunion on my dads side in BC. I have an inkling that most of the family would only be able to make it to one event and not the other. ahh.. cest la vie.
We also have had a look at some bakeries around the city, and let me tell you, they are all GORGEOUS wedding cakes! I dont know how I'll ever decide on one! Even IGA makes wedding cakes! Who woulda thought?!
Over the next month or so, we have alot of work to do..
-Engagement Photos
-Official Engagement Announcement
-Set a date & back-up dates
-Set a budget
-Set up a rough guest list
-find a ceremony "officiant"
-select ceremony & reception spots
-find tent rentals etc
-find wedding gown etc
-bridesmaids gowns etc
-find a caterer
-find a baker
-book a photographer
-book a DJ
-start looking at invitations
--hah! I didnt think that most of this would have to be done until a few months before, but apparently this is aaalll "supposed" to be done one year prior. Yeah right. I'm also supposed to have an "engagement party" yeah right! I didnt even know such a thing existed.
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We also have had a look at some bakeries around the city, and let me tell you, they are all GORGEOUS wedding cakes! I dont know how I'll ever decide on one! Even IGA makes wedding cakes! Who woulda thought?!
Over the next month or so, we have alot of work to do..
-Engagement Photos
-Official Engagement Announcement
-Set a date & back-up dates
-Set a budget
-Set up a rough guest list
-find a ceremony "officiant"
-select ceremony & reception spots
-find tent rentals etc
-find wedding gown etc
-bridesmaids gowns etc
-find a caterer
-find a baker
-book a photographer
-book a DJ
-start looking at invitations
--hah! I didnt think that most of this would have to be done until a few months before, but apparently this is aaalll "supposed" to be done one year prior. Yeah right. I'm also supposed to have an "engagement party" yeah right! I didnt even know such a thing existed.
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Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Motherhood
Lately I've been very confused about motherhood. I told my love that I wasnt sure that I wanted to have children because of all the pain we would inflict on them. We talked alot about the subject of children and we both realized one thing. We both thought that we where raised absolutely perfectly until we hit about 16 or 17. Thats when we realized that maybe things could have been done differently. Not necessarily better, just different.
I told him that up until then, I honestly thought that once you became an adult you didnt have friends. Except for maybe a few distant ones, if you even called them friends. My parents never had friends over, or even called anyone. If they did it was an emergency of some sort. I also thought that it was normal for mothers to be stressed or sad all the time. I thought that just came with the job of being a working mother. Whenever I came home and my mom was upset about something, I thought that I would turn out like that one day. I didnt realize there were happy mothers, I figured it was a TV myth. I also thought that it was abnormal for a family, to live close to relatives. My whole family lives in different parts of three provinces. I thought you moved away, and stayed distant. That was apart of growing up. Now I know better.
It's very painful to have the light shed on such things. You realize how different your childhood would have been if only you would have known it didnt have to be like that. Its like when a young child first realizes that people actually hurt each other, and that it's a dog eat dog world out there. They look pained and confused. Thats how I feel somedays about motherhood. Fortunately now that I know that its not all true, I can make the best choices.
It's funny but, I still am surprised by how different mothers can be. For instance, last year my love and I where visiting his parents. Before we left his parents said that they where sorry for something that happened years and years ago, and his mom looked teary-eyed. This totally floored me, I was raised with what the parents say - goes! I hardly ever got appologies from my parents, especially such heartfelt ones. Now I'm not saying my parents where mean horrible people, it was more like my parents would feel embarassed to say it.
Just this past Easter weekend my dads girlfriend was over making us Easter supper. When I came into the house the music was turned on upstairs, and it was LOUD. It was the weirdest thing. I was actually confused for a minute. You see, we always had loud music going on in the house, we are a very music oriented family (and theres two boys!). But it was always on in the basement, so it was muffled upstairs. But no.. it was playing upstairs. In the kitchen I also heard loud singing. Female singing. Here she was, in my moms kitchen, prancing around making pumpkin pie and singing to loud music. This threw me for a wild loop. I wanted to cry at this fresh realization. I was always sad that my mom always complained about the music being too loud, especially when it's so soulful to me. Now I realized that it didnt have to be that way. I didnt have to be like that.
Now it also hurt me that she was doing that in my moms kitchen. It felt scandalous. It was something I would do after school before mom came home from work, something sacred. I would turn up the music and enjoy it before she came home, when it was promptly turned off so she could have a nap because she was stressed. The music made her mood worse. Now dads girlfriend felt like a mom-replacement, and it was totally different.
Well at least I know that no matter how many times and how frequently Im shocked by motherhood, that I can still be me, and be a good mother. Heres to mothers!
Ps: No..im not preggo!!!! It's just something you think about when you're engaged!! :)
I told him that up until then, I honestly thought that once you became an adult you didnt have friends. Except for maybe a few distant ones, if you even called them friends. My parents never had friends over, or even called anyone. If they did it was an emergency of some sort. I also thought that it was normal for mothers to be stressed or sad all the time. I thought that just came with the job of being a working mother. Whenever I came home and my mom was upset about something, I thought that I would turn out like that one day. I didnt realize there were happy mothers, I figured it was a TV myth. I also thought that it was abnormal for a family, to live close to relatives. My whole family lives in different parts of three provinces. I thought you moved away, and stayed distant. That was apart of growing up. Now I know better.
It's very painful to have the light shed on such things. You realize how different your childhood would have been if only you would have known it didnt have to be like that. Its like when a young child first realizes that people actually hurt each other, and that it's a dog eat dog world out there. They look pained and confused. Thats how I feel somedays about motherhood. Fortunately now that I know that its not all true, I can make the best choices.
It's funny but, I still am surprised by how different mothers can be. For instance, last year my love and I where visiting his parents. Before we left his parents said that they where sorry for something that happened years and years ago, and his mom looked teary-eyed. This totally floored me, I was raised with what the parents say - goes! I hardly ever got appologies from my parents, especially such heartfelt ones. Now I'm not saying my parents where mean horrible people, it was more like my parents would feel embarassed to say it.
Just this past Easter weekend my dads girlfriend was over making us Easter supper. When I came into the house the music was turned on upstairs, and it was LOUD. It was the weirdest thing. I was actually confused for a minute. You see, we always had loud music going on in the house, we are a very music oriented family (and theres two boys!). But it was always on in the basement, so it was muffled upstairs. But no.. it was playing upstairs. In the kitchen I also heard loud singing. Female singing. Here she was, in my moms kitchen, prancing around making pumpkin pie and singing to loud music. This threw me for a wild loop. I wanted to cry at this fresh realization. I was always sad that my mom always complained about the music being too loud, especially when it's so soulful to me. Now I realized that it didnt have to be that way. I didnt have to be like that.
Now it also hurt me that she was doing that in my moms kitchen. It felt scandalous. It was something I would do after school before mom came home from work, something sacred. I would turn up the music and enjoy it before she came home, when it was promptly turned off so she could have a nap because she was stressed. The music made her mood worse. Now dads girlfriend felt like a mom-replacement, and it was totally different.
Well at least I know that no matter how many times and how frequently Im shocked by motherhood, that I can still be me, and be a good mother. Heres to mothers!
Ps: No..im not preggo!!!! It's just something you think about when you're engaged!! :)
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
A good song! :)
I found this song the other day and I LOVE IT!! You all must must must get it!
Here are the Lyrics:
Big & Rich - Lost in this moment
see your momma, and the candles and tears and roses
I see your daddy walk his daughter down the isle
Now my knees start to tremble as I tell the preacher
Don’t she look beautiful tonight
All the wonderful words in my head I’ve been thinking
You know I want to say ‘em all just right
I lift your vale, and angels start singing
Such a heavenly sign, yeah
Chorus
Lost in this moment with you
I am completely consumed
My feelings so absolute, there’s no doubt
Sealing our love with a kiss
Waitin’ my whole life for this
Watching all my dreams come true
Lost in this moment with you
I smell the jasmine floating in the air like a love song
Watch my words draw sweet tears from your eyes
Bow our heads while the preacher talks to Jesus
Please bless this brand new life
Chorus
Lost in this moment with you
I am completely consumed
My feelings so absolute, there’s no doubt
Sealing our love with a kiss
Waitin’ my whole life for this
Watching all my dreams come true
Lost in this moment with you, yeah
Chorus
Lost in this moment with you
I am completely consumed
My feelings so absolute, there’s no doubt
Sealing our love with a kiss
Waitin’ my whole life for this
Watching all my dreams come true
Lost in this moment with you
Lost in the moment, in thismoment with you
Lost in the moment, yeah
Lost in the moment, (in the moment in this moment with you
Lost in the moment
Here are the Lyrics:
Big & Rich - Lost in this moment
see your momma, and the candles and tears and roses
I see your daddy walk his daughter down the isle
Now my knees start to tremble as I tell the preacher
Don’t she look beautiful tonight
All the wonderful words in my head I’ve been thinking
You know I want to say ‘em all just right
I lift your vale, and angels start singing
Such a heavenly sign, yeah
Chorus
Lost in this moment with you
I am completely consumed
My feelings so absolute, there’s no doubt
Sealing our love with a kiss
Waitin’ my whole life for this
Watching all my dreams come true
Lost in this moment with you
I smell the jasmine floating in the air like a love song
Watch my words draw sweet tears from your eyes
Bow our heads while the preacher talks to Jesus
Please bless this brand new life
Chorus
Lost in this moment with you
I am completely consumed
My feelings so absolute, there’s no doubt
Sealing our love with a kiss
Waitin’ my whole life for this
Watching all my dreams come true
Lost in this moment with you, yeah
Chorus
Lost in this moment with you
I am completely consumed
My feelings so absolute, there’s no doubt
Sealing our love with a kiss
Waitin’ my whole life for this
Watching all my dreams come true
Lost in this moment with you
Lost in the moment, in thismoment with you
Lost in the moment, yeah
Lost in the moment, (in the moment in this moment with you
Lost in the moment
Oi Vey!
Well I knew wedding preperations were hectic, and I knew I would/will get irritated and overwhelmed, but I had no idea there were so many things to think about! Everyone is asking When and Where. I have no idea! Not a bloddy clue! I cant decide where it's going to be until I know how many we want to have, and until we know our budget. I also cant decide how many or what the budget should be until I know where its gonna be, and when. Oi vey! I have a million ideas from a million people, and they all sound amazing. How are we to decide?! Im pretty sure we want an outdoor wedding, but WHERE?! I want alot of people to come, but I dont want it to be near here, I was thinking in the mountains, but then that makes it inconvenient for guests. But should I care? It's for us right? :P
So far there are a few things we DID decide, and you can check it out here. We/I should be posting on there a little bit more in a few months when we have the ball rolling a little bit more. The biggest challenge is getting the wedding I want for cheap cheap cheap. Im not saying we're dirt poor, we live comfortably. We almost always have enough left over at the end of the month for emergency groceries, etc. I dont even know how much weddings cost! Do people take out loans for weddings? Should I do that now? So many questions!
Well two things are for sure.. I AM goig to go crazy! And I love my fiance! :)
So far there are a few things we DID decide, and you can check it out here. We/I should be posting on there a little bit more in a few months when we have the ball rolling a little bit more. The biggest challenge is getting the wedding I want for cheap cheap cheap. Im not saying we're dirt poor, we live comfortably. We almost always have enough left over at the end of the month for emergency groceries, etc. I dont even know how much weddings cost! Do people take out loans for weddings? Should I do that now? So many questions!
Well two things are for sure.. I AM goig to go crazy! And I love my fiance! :)
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Beautiful!
So a few minutes ago a got an email from a good friend of mine that is just over 8 months pregnant. She sent me pictures that she had done that are absolutely beautiful. I HAD to share them.. here ya go!
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